This piece was written for the Black Hole Club Mayday Reader May 2020. Inspired by several skype conversations with other Black Hole Club members during the first UK Covid19 lockdown, it attempts to show the difficulties that arise when an autistic person tries to communicate allistically.*
I want to.
modal verb: can't
c. 1400, from can (v.1) + not. Old English expressed the notion by ne cunnan. The typical representation of the Scottish pronunciation is canna.
See definitions in: All (Nautical) (Carpentry)
Hypocritical and sanctimonious talk, typically of a moral, religious, or political nature:
"he had no time for the cant of the priests about sin"
Language specific to a particular group or profession and regarded with disparagement.
Denoting a phrase or catchword temporarily current or in fashion.
modifier noun: cant
"‘herstories’ rather than ‘histories’ as the cant phrase goes"
Talk hypocritically and sanctimoniously about something.
"if they'd stop canting about ‘honest work’ they might get somewhere"
(of a ship) swing round.
"the ship canted to starboard"
(Carpentry) a wedge-shaped block of wood, especially one remaining after the better-quality pieces have been cut off.
"a squared-off cant remains, containing the knottiest wood"
Canticles (in biblical references).
plural noun: canticles;
singular proper noun: Canticles;
1. a hymn or chant, typically with a biblical text, forming a regular part of a church service.
2. another name for Song of Songs (especially in the Vulgate Bible).
Origin Middle English: from Latin canticulum ‘little song’, diminutive of canticum, from canere ‘sing’.
My little song, without hypocrisy & no political talk
(disability is political tho)
is that I can’t.
I can’t because I don’t
It’s too much
And words that slide on the tongue like so much spittle and gack:
Slack & Skype & so many #’s